Hakao = yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuummy
Thursday, October 08, 2009
This post is a testament to my inherent bipolarity.
After a night of good food and company, I no longer feel the crippling emotions that took hold of me just a few hours back. Food definitely solves everything. Kidding. I am not willing to give myself to the dogs.
Maybe one just sees the error of her ways better after a great meal.
You can quote me
Guten nacht.
Ciao :)
--Angel-HAD a little lamb--
11:12 PM
masakit nga
tama si Steph, "masakit"
minsan masakit lang talaga,
kahit alam mo namang hindi ka dapat nasasaktan o naapektuhan ng ganun.
nagsama-sama lang siguro 'yung lungkot dahil hinihintay ko 'to buong araw,
welcome break kumbaga,
at sa katagalan na rin ng hindi naming pasama.
Sometimes I find myself (completely) ignored by the people I love.
PATHETIC (with a capital everything)
naman, nakakainis :p
alam ko naman eh, na hindi dapat ganito wahahaha
masochist, martyr, mmmmmmission imposible!Yes, IMPOSIBLE!
LABO
sabi ko bawal umiyak.
'pag hindi ko ba pinatulo, hindi na siya iyak?
Ang drama, pwede na sa iskrip :P
hay.
at least, nag-resked,
and I've read enough to know that at the very least,
I'm not being avoided like the plague.
I suddenly want to read Kundera's "Unbearable Lightness of Being",
But still in the state of missing that "someone" (haha, magaya nga si Nina :) ).
Honestly, naiisip ko na rin talaga kung paano kaya kung pakawalan ko na lang 'to,
nakakapagod rin kasi...
but then I catch myself and decide that it'll be all worth it in the end,
at baka naman nagiging ganun dahil pinapagod ko lang sarili ko.
HINDE, HINDE,
joke lang :)
Think win-win, whatevre happens
we grow.
Though tonight we feel lonely,
tomorrow we dine in _ _ _ _ (I know it's the other way around, I checked first, but this is what literary freedom is all about, being allowed to twist things around and not make sense if you want to. But you should have gotten my point :p)
Good night.
Ciao.
Labels: boyf, growth, Nina, pathetic, Steph, win-win
--Angel-HAD a little lamb--
8:46 PM
let's resurrect the dead lamb
Sunday, September 20, 2009
actually, it's more of the little girl who's pulling the dead lamb, the little girl who got caught in such a busy, sometimes apathetic, often pathetic, but still uber duber life. It's definitely been awhile. The 'thing' with Non ended a long time ago(a year or so?) and I've found someone special - I think I may have already mentioned it before, but anyway...and school's been tough, definitely not how I envisioned it to be...I really must have had an inflated ego hiding somewhere. Reading my posts before my senior year in HS ended made me nostalgic, and made me feel the irony of things....a few months (amounting now to a year++) ago, I was getting ready to start a new chapter in my life, and to end a bittersweet(more sweet :P)phase, now I'm in my second year (almost half of that) in college, and I'm worrying about the possibilty of failing, not maintaing my scholarship, getting delayed, not continuing med. Time flies so fast, and the tables--rather the wheels, turn faster. Cannot keep up with all this angular accelaration and momentum operating! Kidding...but, that'as just it...we are in a constant (insert word-can't remember, probably moment NOOOO) of flux - I remember now, state...that's the word hahahaa Let's not let our lives spin out of control.
I'm hoping the next time I read this entry, I'll be back on top again, at least standing firmly on what I want to have done. go go go me, us , everyone! think positive, and continue reading "The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens" - BUY NOW kidding. But it's a really good book, the only thing left to do is read it, and more importantly, apply it to life.
ciao
Labels: college, life, update
--Angel-HAD a little lamb--
1:52 AM
One person
Sunday, January 11, 2009
isip ka ng ISANG tao.
i-base mo sa kanya ang mga isasagot mo. WALANG ibahan ng naiisip
1. friend mo ba siya sa friendster?
hinde..hehe
2. bakit siya napili mo sa survey na 'to?
kasi crush ko..:p
3. anong lugar ang naaalala mo sa kanya?
MoMo MOO MOO
4. anong songs ang naaalala mo sa kanya?
The Prayer..
5. bakit?
Kasi maganda sobra ang measure 63 at katabi ko siya nung kinakanta namin 'to
6. okay ba ang height?
mas matangkad sa'kin...ng onte :p
7. magaling ba sumayaw?
oo...hahaha
8. may kamukha ba siyang artista?
kamukha niya 'yung nasa picture sa Nokia service centre sa Cyberzone...
9. nakita mo na siyang magalit?
mainis ata..galit?ewan...sungit eh...:p
10. eh ngumiti?
yes naman...:D
11. eh umiyak?
di PA...papaiyakin ko...:p
12. ano fave niya suotin?
feeling ko mahilig siya mag-jacket...:D
13. pinapasaya ka ba niya?
pag kinikilig ako, oo...yuck...haha
14. naging malaking parte ba sya ng buhay mo?
ewan...baka...:p
15.mga bagay na nakakapagpaalala sayo tungkol sa kanya?
MC
16. Love Mo ba Xa?
di pa, pero pwede...malay...:p
17. friends ba kayo?
oo ata...haha
18. nakasama mo na ba sya?
na kami lang?once...hahaha
19. may binigay na ba syang lesson sayo?
dapat alam mo priorities mo...:D
20. may codename ba siya sayo?
as in nickname na siya lang gumagamit?:Doo...meron rin siya...:D
Labels: survey, yikee, yuck
--Angel-HAD a little lamb--
5:48 PM
OVER
Saturday, November 08, 2008
I watch the walls around me crumble
but it's not like I wont build them up again
so here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts cause it will end
And my tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know
I won't be the one to chase you
but at the same time you're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
and the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
tell me that it's over
And I'll be the first to go
Yeah, I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know
Over... Over... Over...
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I dream about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if we're not in it together
tell me that it's over
tell me that it's over
over
Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me
Don't tell me that it's over
Don't tell me that it's over
For bipolar pathetic people....:p but sometimes life does seem to be so conflicting... but I'm sure about this...na dapat sinasabi na lang talaga pag wala na...ang hirap kasi pag may guessing game pa..at kelangan pa mag-assume...it's harder to move on, in fact seemingly impossible...:p
GAMEOVER!
ciao :D
Labels: lindsay, over
--Angel-HAD a little lamb--
7:47 PM
grace notes
Monday, October 27, 2008
what I did today:
went to UPM to talk to Ma'am Gavino, buti nagkasalubong kami sa PGH...
paid some bills...nakalimutan ko pala dalhin susi ko...so di ko rin nabalik 'yung activism paper ni Kay Perez at nakuha 'yung half opened milk carton...oops...
bought some 2 books....compendum of Catholic Dogma and...a book about forgotten movies..
read "How to Move Mount Fuji" or basta...'yung book about the puzzles Microsoft uses during intereviews...
developed my commuting skills(linipat na pala 'yung sakayan sa may parking lot ng SM sa medyo gilid pa nun na parking lot...at mas maayos na)
went to UP Diliman to confess...but did not make it in time..
nagbanyo sa CR na walang tubig at flush sa Shopping Centre..
got to hear the UP Ambassadors sing...or kung sino man 'yun...basta ang galing...
bread talk...
kain ng maraming chocolate foodstuff..
relearned some piano pieces...
yey
wala lang....
I'll mostly be out during the next few days...wahahahaha...
enjoying the sem break...but to me that mostly means...watching good movies...biking around the neighborhood...catching up on my reading...fixing my room...and uhhhhh...ewan...hahaha...
ciao..:D
Labels: active, sem break
--Angel-HAD a little lamb--
9:01 PM
Survey from Hannah (just one before comm)
Sunday, October 19, 2008
What's wrong with you right now?
I should be doing comm instead of this...:p
Are you mean? Mean, lean, fighting machine!:P
I HOPE NOT...:p
What movie did you last see in the theater?
Tropic Thunder..same as Hannah. how come everyone's raving about it?didn't get to enjoy it that much. probably just watch it again...without distractions...hahaha!
Do you think that you're a good person?
I want to be one...:D
Do you like to hold or be held?
Both...I wanna have a sheep-ish look on my face while that happens...:p
Are you listening to music right now?
The sound of silence. be fixing playlists and music folders in a bit.
Is there something that happened in your past that you really hate talking about?
nothing really, it's more of I can't talk about certain things right now...with some people, pero buti ngayon...may outlets ako...thank you, thank you...:D
Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
Ummm...maybe...
What do you want in your life right now?
I'm quite content right now...quite...just maybe a little more peace...and less uhhh...bursts of melancholia...:p
I'm coming around, don't worry...:D
Do you think skydiving would be sweet or terrifying?
This one's on my list of to-do's before I die, or turn 3o or something...sana!!!!:D
Are you currently missing someone?
Hmm...don't we all?a lot of people...but as I said, I'm okay..:D
Smoke or drink?
Sober and tobacco-free.
Are you smart?
By my standards, not as much sa I'd like to be...I'm still learning though...:D
Waiting for?
Nothing. I feel like saying nothing. I don't think I want to think about that right now...:p
Joke....maybe a soul mate...haha...OMG.kainis...I DO NOT WANT TO THINK ABOUT THAT RIGHT NOW!!!!:P
If you could own a non-traditional pet, what would it be?
a turtle isn't so unconditional right?WALRUS!!!!Joke lang, just heard that from Bono(Across the Universe OST)...Pag legal na, siguro...tortoise, Tridachna gigas (giant clam), or maybe a worm...a cute worm...hahaha
Do you find it easier to forgive or forget?
Forgive - my memory isn't so bad so it's hard to forget. Besides, our memories are part of who we are...and it would be tragic if we lost them...recalling Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind..:D
Would you ever stay with someone just because you didn't want to break their heart?
I haven't really been in an official relationship...but from experience, I think I have the tendency to prolong things...without meaning to hurt people. that's something I'm trying to improve on, by the way.
Are you sad?
Not really. Contemplative...:p
What's a sure way to catch your attention?
Tell me straight to my face that you like me (like that'll ever happen again...:p).
I dunno...surprise me...be a jerk, without me hating you...or be super nice...unbearably nice without being a sissy...:p pero that's for liking someone...pero attention lang as in general, be weird!!!and cool...hahahaha..or hot...hahaha!
Would you marry just for money?
You can never tell...hahaha..joke lang...SANA HINDE!
Do you dream in color or black and white?
Color...technicolor...joke lang...:pI don't recall having sepia or BW dreams...hahaha
Often take surveys?
I used to....not so much now...but I often take them whenever I'm supposed to finish something important...:p
Do you write poems?
Yeah...not very good ones though...:P
But there's one I'm proud of...I'll post it sometime...:D
Do you get along with your parents?
We have our disagreements and tampuhans, but yeah. I love them...:D
What do you do when you're sad?
Cry....and climb the roof...and look over places in the scope of the angle of depression of my ocular implements (JARGOOOOON)...:p
7 things in your bag
COMM stuff..oh which bag?the one that sort of resembles what normal people would have? uhhh...spare phone, lip gloss, ID, trash, i dunno...toothbrush...other stuff...I can't find my swiss army knife...booooooo
things you do when you’re really stressed:
Treat myself..hahaha..I remember the time I lost 25k pesos...waha...I bought a jacket that turned out to be my favourite from people are people...awww...memories...:p nagiging masungit rin pala ako...hahaha!
Can you watch scary movies alone?
Pathology's the first movie I watched alone...and I think it's the only one...I might try Strangers...hahaha!
Do you like to keep the peace or be confrontational?
hmmm...I'm generally peaceful...pero nakakainis at the same time masaya ang confrontations...exciting...nakakaiyak pa lalo...both siguro...:P
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Do you keep secrets well?
I think so...dapat...scscreen ko naman...:p
Would you tattoo someone's name on your body?
This isn't considered a sin right? at para sakin, parang hinde...but a name? I dunno...it's still a possibility...
Do yocu like beer?
Contrary to my initial views on beer, I finf it...bearable...almost like tea...try it with calamansi...hahaha
Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
Tama siya, stupid na if guys wear it just to show they're machismo...hahaha...at kung di bagay...hahaha
Do you still watch cartoons?
Yeah, but not as often as I'd like to...:D
What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Fight Club, Ploning, Sideways, 2046, Windstruck, at baka My Blueberry Nights...:D at Ironman at Batman!!!:D
kasi 'yun 'yung movies na may warm fuzzy feeling na ewan...:P AT ASTIG...:P
Afraid of heights?
No. Umaakyat nga ako ng bubong...hahaha..naisip ko na rin kung ano kaya kung tumalon ako...triny ko na rin tumalon mula sa parang attic ng garage...sarap ng feeling...naisip ko lang sabi sa Stranger than Fiction, you probably die from the feeling of falling when you jump of a building, not because of the collision.
Are you patient?
Not really...sabing hind
What is the hardest thing for you to say?
I don't think I've ever said "I don't like you" to anyone...:p
Unless super close na...and maybe I just mean "I really hate it when you"...
But it's more of....actions..not just saying stuff...It's hard to let go...:D
What do you want to receive on your birthday?
Chocolate, Eurotrip, table PC, lifetime supply ng Staedler pens, and G-tec's .3 and .4, sketchpads, Jordi Labanda Notebooks, BOOOOOKS!!!!!clothes!!!!iPod, lahat ng game consoles...blah blah blah..si Gaspard Ulliel!:p
pero ok na rin ang "Happy Birthday Angel", at kiss at hug...:D
What makes you frustrated?
Miscommunication, jerks, and passive people(most of the time...:p)
Who will you turn to if you have a huge prob?
God, family (especially my sister), bestfriend, uberduber friends!!!:D and maybe a stranger...hahaha
In a relationship?
I'll assume a relationship in the context of love and intimacy...NOPE...:p
Do you cry a lot recently?
Yes, but not as much as I normally would given the circumstances...:p
How many kids do you want to have?
Three rin....perfect...:D
Michel Ma. Alexis, Banana Angeles, and what's the name of the other one...wahhhh...London something..:well 'yan sabi ko sa Philo...:P at shit gusto ko mga pangalan na Mithi, Kidlat, mga ganun!!!:D at Edgar Allan...:p
Would you take a bullet for someone?
It's highly possible that I would...:D hero-complex...hahaha
Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
I'm reminded of the song "For Good", from Wicked, the musical...hahaha
sana...gusto ko...:Dpero kung hinde, 'wag ipilit...:D
Say something about your love life.
Non-existent...hahaha
Have you ever fallen in love with a friend?
The love that I know?No, not yet..:p
Are you a warfreak?
Not really...nangunuglit lang minsan...KSP?wahhhhhh...ayaw...:p
What do you have to do before you sleep?
I used to cry a lot before going to sleep, a few weeks ago siguro 'yun....pero sana pray...pero minsan nakakatulog so minsan ang nagagawa ko lang kunin 'yung rosaryo...:D
Will you donate organs after you die?
I put that in my Last Will sa philo...:p Yes, I really plan on doing this...
Has anyone gotten on your nerves lately?
Hmmm...hinayaan ko namang i-bug ako...:p pero walang super...hahaha..pero kanina sinisipa ko 'yung basketball habang may iniisip na tao...hahaha!
If you’ll go on a date, what would you like to do?
A date need not be romantic...:p basta great food and company...pero kung anything goes...be suspended in outer space!!!:P or just have quiet time in high places...stargazing, i have yet to do this...:D
What would be the best partner of a good cup of coffee?
I don't drink coffee...:pmas ok pa alcohol...hahaha.pero kung hot choco...hmm...maybe a book, or pen and paper, or laptop...or someone cool...:D
Have you ever stayed up all night while drunk or high?
Not yet...but I don't intend to do this...pero gusto ko ma-try na malasing, na lasing talaga...kasi gusto ko malaman gagawin ko...haha...kasi parang wala nang inhibitions...hahaha
What makes you laugh no matter what?
Pag kinikiliti ako ni Mai...or basta weird stuff...things people do that go unnoticed...hahaha..cheesiness...hahaha
Do you get butterflies around the guys/girls you like?
May masarap na feeling...:D
Do you think it is bad to have sex at your age?
Oo nga, depende kung mag-asawa na...requirements, marriage, commitment, and love... wala pa ako nun so di pa pwede...pero pag pwede na...grabeh...gagalingan ko talaga....hahaha!
Will you get married?
Gusto ko talaga...hahahaha...gusto ko magkaanak...at magka-mind-blowing sex....when I'm married of course...:D
Would you change yourself for the person you love?
Nangyayari ata 'to...ummm...sa susunod, kung sa'kin okay naman ang mga qualities sana hinde...pero di mo rin masasabi...pero ayoko nang makalimutan sarili ko...:D
What do you tell yourself when times get hard?
"Existentialism, existence preceeds essence..." or stuff like "this too shall pass", at siyempre, inaacknowledge ko na mga desisyon ko rin (well sila 'yung may malaking kontribusyon) ang nagdala sa'kin sa kinalalagyan ko ngayon...
have you started a horrible rumour about somebody?
Ang rumor ba, hindi totoo?pero meron na akong mga...uhhhh...kwinento/brining up sa mga tao na dapat hinde...ang sama eh...:/Sorry...
have you ever done hallucinogenic drugs?
Nah.
have you ever been too drunk to remember a certain night?
I'm waiting for that day...but I have to be with people I trust...:D
do you think your future will be a good one?
I'll attempt to make it one, at sana pumayag ang Diyos...:D
Do you think you were raised well?
Yes...Thank you Nanay and Ama, and I love you...:Dsana maging cool mom ako!!!!:D
How do you handle stress?
I cry...I laugh, I get through it...:P
If there was true love on one side of the street and a million bucks on the other, which one would you pick?
Tinatanong pa ba 'to? Show me the money!!!!JOKE LANG...love, tapos balikan namin 'yung million bucks...:p
If your parents got divorced and you had to pick mom or dad to live with?
Wah.....sana hindi ito mangyari....baka kumuha ako ng condo...at ippaint ko sia with angry colors...joke lang...wah...
Do you think you know the meaning of true love?
I know what love is, but I can't explain it enough...:p
Do you wish someone was with you right now?
Ummm...kahit ano...hahaha...ayan passive na...not really...sabog ko ngayon eh...at mabaho dahil di pa ako naliligo after magshoot ng hoops...:p
What time did you go to sleep last night?
5 am na ata 'yun...or 6...basta may ilaw na....insomniac these past days...and I haven't been doing comm at that rate!OMG...:/
Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Not really, less than others...pero kung standards ko ulit...siguro medyo...
Did you sing at all today?
Yeah, nag-aral for Madrigals Workshop...wahhhhh...hirap ng Alleluia part ng "Haec Dies" at mahirap rin "Sana Maulit Muli"...x_______________W
Do you want someone you can't have?
I love someone I can't have...but that's life - not just in the movies...:D pero kahit di na mapasakin...mahal mo eh....WTF...hahahaha!people fall out of love, and people move on...:D
I'm good...but my term paper as of now isn't!!!Hahhahaha....
ciao!
Labels: comm, survey
--Angel-HAD a little lamb--
10:56 PM
Tanggalin ang Muta
Meron akong nakausap na matagal tagal na rin since huli kong nakausap...
ang weird ng ichura niya, but at that time, parang anything goes...
ang saya saya...at hindi ka pala talaga matatakot...sana ma-experience niyo rin...
nung nag-umaga na ng tuluyan, kinailangan na niya umalis...pero nakahabol ako...nagpa-dasal ako...:Dat na-hug ko pa siya...ang saya saya...:D
para akong insomniac kagabi, these past couple of days hirap na hirap talaga ako matulog...siguro marami lang iniisip, cnconsider, inaanalyze(not for comm!:P)...and it was refreshing to wake up to a good morning because of that visit...
sana makausap ko ulit...:D
I miss you!I love you!Mwah!!!!!
ciao!:D
Labels: lola, panaginip
--Angel-HAD a little lamb--
11:23 AM
la la la la la la...ang kati ng mukha ko...
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Angel is glued to her cute green chair. wahaaaaaa...
posting-spree...x__________w
MUST EAT NOW.
itchy itchy face....
Albert Camuuuuuuuuus(sounds like kamut daw, akala ko nietzsche!kasi itch!!!!hahaha)
cute cute cute....:D
ciao!
--Angel-HAD a little lamb--
3:26 PM
